seriously, i dun wanna stay so fat for the rest of my life.
im getting fatter day by day. oh no.
i tink i need to get rid of at least 10Kg of fats off me. WHAT TO DO?? HOW? i tink i look like a mother who had just given birth. i look like an elephant.
DAMN! SHIT. i dun wanna look like this too.
i just cant control myself. u think its nice not being able to buy nice clothes?
ARGH. DAMMNIT
i just wanna buy nice clothes. issit that hard?
**i'm willing to marry anyone who can make me lose that fats. or someone who can sponsor me for those slimming programmes..LOL. rite..i should shoot myself rite? hahas.**
i just envy those girls..those girls who can try on any clothings that they fancy in THIS FASHION.haha..all those nice and pretty and STRAPLESS and SLEEVELESS clothes..lol. what has gone into me? i tink im getting depressed. oh shucks. if i cant find anything to wear to prom, i dunno what i'll do.
please dun say u're fat in front of me. dun do that or i'll get nasty. really. or i'll just get more depressed than i already am. haha.

i just dun like this. i really don't.
i thought if i could get good results, nothing will matter anymore. i can look as ugly as i want. haha.
BUT JUST LOOK AT MY RESULTS!!!! they suck lo.
nothing is good about me. no leadership. so-so social life. no looks. no good results. no talent. no money. i just cant find anymore good points about myself. i should just go jump off a building somewhere in thailand where nobody noes me. LOL



that's what i feel like after i couldn't fit into a dress in THIS FASHION. LOL..
but that's what i truly feel about myself..i tink i suck. dammnit. argh.

i'm bacK! so long never update this blog...well. had the celebration cum handover tt day.
SO FUN! lols. aniway. i've decided. i wanna join the alumni. [like i decided to do tt long ago.] LOLS..

i'm missing everybody! longing for the day to get back to the orchestra with everybody..when will that be? starting to miss xing kong and chang cheng. all the upbeats, cresendo, ZHENG LAOSHI!! wanna see him again. i dun even mind his "我�懂为设么[why. i cant find tt word.]你们一�下�就�讲�." LOLs..

i wanna go overseas!!! hmmmmz..hong kong. taiwan. australia. anywhere..even m'sia or sentosa...HAHAHAHA...

i dun understand y i cant write nice entries like u guys leh. y ar? so funny. hahas. any tips??? =]

Chinese Orchestra number 15. Temasek Secondary School. GOLD!

*screams* claps * cries* hugs* handphones out* OH MY GOSH!!!

ITS A GOLD! i cant believe it!

*still immersed in the estacy of GOLD*

mixed feeling about this gold. strive so much for that gold with honours. but as everybody says, one step at a time. hahas. even though its not a honour, we noe that we've did our best. on the stage, all i could think of was what mr oh said in the morning. "don't think of the results on the stage. the best music is the melodies that come out from here [points to heart]" OMG!
so tou-ched. so proud of TMSCO! we rock!

"play chang cheng like u will never get to play your bass ever again"--lin(cello) laoshi rocks!
"aiyo. dun cry animore! CONGRATS! [shakes hand]"--koh seng rocks!
i lurve lao zheng! all the alumnis! all the teachers in charge! =] still so happie****
i love zhu lao shi too! although he couldn't be with us till the end, we all know that he is always supporting us. he lives in our hearts~

and my bass. decided to call it..hmm.**BASSIE**! have so much feelings for him/it already. i dun wanna hand it over to somebody else! i dun wana step down! will miss everybody so much. audrey, sheramin, dennis, even zhirong. MUACKS


*TMSCO ROCKS*

THANKEW EVERYBODY!*** i love you!

Congrats to Choir!!!

okay. i noe this is abit late. but i had no time to update can? tt day when henry came back from the toilet. we knew something is not right. STRESS ar..haha..IT's A GOLD!!

choir is our motivation. we can do it.

hey. i wanted to do what ychuan did too.but my dad turned off my internet connection and i cudnt update. hmph.lol..

aniway.. CO rocks my socks!! i tink wad ms leong said is vy motivating. playing music is like story-telling. telling the story isnt enough. there must be expressions, rythm, dynamics blah blah..

bah..my fingers are seriously painful. but for that gold, i'm willing to do anithing, everything.

[WE WANT THAT GOLD]

i'm so happie that zheng lao shi is back. =]

F.O.C.U.S and believe... yeah... look at each other eyes!!![lol] and smile and enjoy[rmbering TAI FENG!!!] Jiayou man!!!! dun let it be a regret.... [from ychuan's blog]

there's only 11 days left. we must jiayou together! united as one, we can make it. [haha. so social studies]

20th april. the stage will be ours.

okay. i get wad u mean. if tt was for me.

SYF's coming. [20th april]
so exciting. so scary. dreading that day, but at the same time, hope it will come faster. i just dunno what to say.
tt practice at SCH was weird. i mean, y can DHSCO play it so grandly and we sound so weak at SCH? jiayou. buck up. there's just less than a month left. give it all u've got.
[dare to dream,persevere to achieve]

i just wanna be myself. if u tink that i'm pretending all along. u're wrong. i'm very happy. i think.

i want to sing. i wanna go shopping. i wanna take neoprints. regret not taking tt neoprint with u. dun tink i'll have the chance in the future.

regrets. argh. whatever.

SYF. just wait and see.

we can and we will.

[Ooohhhh mmmyy gooooodddneeeesss]

guess what. its already 27th of feb. 2 months passed just like that? whoa. means we only have like 6 more months to O's? die. die. die. and i'm still here typing all this what-nots. bleh...

i think im starting to worry. this is so not me. cus in e past, i only get worried at the last minute, which is like a few days b4 the exam? liao...argh.

what to do? where should i go after o's? read the TP's guides last week. i think business and management is sooo for me lor. budden abit sian. so i oso dunno wad to do la. sianz. really wanna go NAFA. budden it's impossible. since my mum is thinks JC is e best way. haha. its okay. nvm.

i'm actually very irritated over alot of things. just dunno how to say everything out. it's seriously not good to bottle up our feelings. just realised it. argh..friends and all these. its making me confused. its just went [poof], and everyting's over. what really happened? i still dunno. hey friend, if u noe im toking about u. explain to me k? i miss u.

and there's the ss project. die. like look at e ppl in my grp....

wheee~ Chinese New Year! haha..actually did nothing much. i wish i was in m'sia..ALOT of angbaos..land my shuai shuai cousin! and the super cute babies!! haha..ol.too bad. i cant skip school. or rather dun dare too..call me a coward.watever.haha. yest and today, WAH LAO! so little ppl at dazu..okay la..not really little..but got some nv come..obviously it was because of new year..but still........
today was quite funny no..when zheng laoshi tried to teach chuyuan the diao-iao-iao thingy.haha..he sounded so funny! what must sound like there's a ghost. haha..and the sao-ba-xing..-_-''' hahaha.
Valentine's day coming. haha..not my prob anyway. i dun haf one. except the [secret valentine] thing..which is so not counted. haha..lalalala..whatever then.

[Musical Epoch 2005]

great! its a pity xw didn't go..LOL..i really had fun..maybe it'll be the last time tt we'll be doing tt..must cherish everyting we have now..once its over, there's nothing left anymore. OH and the dunman high....their doubles basses..seriously ar..i got nothing to say man. so freaking old can? and it's all dirty and ugly..and there's a vy vy vy vy UGLY BLACK one..yucks..see already oso scared can? eeeeeewww..i realised how freaking lucky and bless to haf my “笨猪� after using their bass lo..LOL..yep..it rocks. we rock. =p

[SYF 2005]
everyone is saying the olevels are coming. anybody realised tt syf is even nearer? 3 more months. what to do? what about us? how will we do? what is going to happen to us? i dunno...nobody is telling us anyting. rumours are flying around. somebody should get this clear to everybody. tell us what's happening! we have the right to know too..everyone is sad..me too..we have been together since 3 yrs ago..its just so sudden.stick together! we are gonna go thru this together. at least there's me.althou i'm not significant there..at least rmb tt there's still me.

[puzzled]
wonder y everybody is trying to skip cca these days..even those whom i noe to have been the most loyal, most committed. what happened? cos of the exams? just an excuse ba. i dunno..argh. its not just us. they too..the most dedicated..even they dun wanna go anymore. not pin-pointing to anyone. just puzzled..

[friendship]
was tt about me? if it was..then okay. make it clear to me. dun leave me blur and puzzled. i dunno what happend. was it my fault? what did i do? its already broken, shattered to a thousand pieces. no more. its now worse than what was us when i first knew u. all over. bye bye. but if it still can be mended. pls tell me. if not..then....i dunno..

you told me very very long ago. ur best frens in the past all abandoned u. i thought about it this few months, when we were so far apart..i guess its not them.its u. u abandoned ur best friends, including me. not the other way round.. i dunno how it happened, u just drifted apart frm ur best friends. its not anyone's fault that this happened. but there has to be a reason. what issit? i still havn't figured it out.

New year, new system. i'm class manager? like omg! i was never like a leader b4..lol

SYF's coming.OMG! and we haven started on the set piece yet. dun even noe how it sounds like..yeap, its the attitude of the people. seriously hafta change.

dunno y ppl hate the things now they chose at the first place. if u think u wouldn't like it, then dun come here in the first place! temasek is okay! CO is fun too!! and then now complain and complain and complain about it only. maybe u guys shud change ur attitude about all these stuff. try to like it! its not tt bad. really. and towards the teacher, he/she is quite nice..if u can try to see it frm another perspective, it'll be better..

oh well..................

or maybe its just me? i think everyone is okay. yeap. even the ppl i used to hate. i tink i've changed a lot? i dunno. i think i've learnt alot from the ppl beside me. tts good rite?