sometimes i really think i suck.
i dun haf looks, i dun haf money, i dun haf talent.
AND JUST LOOK AT MY RESULTS!!! even my chemistry[which used to be my best subject] marks looks as if it'd just jumped down from the Patronas Twin Towers..haix.
i dun like to lose. it's not a good feeling to be beaten.dammit.and i thought i was good. ARGH

everyone's talking about jealousy in their blogs. should i talk about it too? hmmmm...i've got no idea. what i wanna say, i cant say it out loud.. haiz
lishean said tt syz was her pillar in life. as for me, ENERGY is my pillar and has been and will always be. no matter what happens, even if yeechuan decides not to support them anymore. even if nobody backs me up, i'll still and always be that loyal fan of theirs. no because tt they are shuai, its just because that i feel that ENERGY gives me the strength to carry on. its like they have become a part of my life, noe? i cant imagine what will happen next. without them for the rest of the days towards the O's. who will be there for me?

ENERGY forever.

ytd was energy's goodbye singapore concert. all i could remember was kunda saying "??????????????????????" OH MAN..this makes me sad. haiz. and there's autograph session today..at junction 8..ITS NOW!! 4PM! OMG..but i jus know tt im not allowed to go lar..even without asking..haiz..
aniway. it was the last day of the camp too. we really wanna go for the closing ceremony!! but why does it have to clash with the concert!??! argh! we missed out on so much can? saddened..hai..heard it was very very very very fun..oh man..starting to miss them already..ramesh and cherie..they changed our lives..really alot..thank you!!

8A1s. strive for it. i can do it. keep going.

everybody is asking me to update. So here i am~ lalalalalala...
ytd was brian's last day so we bought him something lar. its kinda funky..hope he likes it =] hahahahahas.
so, that means today is the first day without brian around in the school lar. although i'm not close to him, but still feels kinda weird when we see only 2 guys instead of 3 in the office whenever we walk past. lols..hope he gets a better job lo~though he wun read my blog lar. hahaahahas.
hmmm. what else to write?
went for co today.wu suo nan yang just sounds weird with a drumset. cuz its different from what we played in pri school. *anklung* lols..its a bamboo instrument from indonesia btw, if u dint now what it is. haha..it looks like this:
thats it lor.haha..its a kinda cool instrument if u'd ask me..[ychuan stop laughing!] lols..and i still think we shudnt play zao an lao shi..that's kinda a too kid-ish song lehx. imagine playing tt for the sec 3 and 4s..
i like derrick and sebastian!! yay~ jiayou~

i must study. i cannot slack.

YO! i'm back. hahahaha. after like so long of not blogging here. actually ar..nth to tok about lehx.

i missing going back to CO. miss those fridays and saturdays when we play with everybody in e orchestra and all. tt day, tuesday la. i went back n found myself kinda 'out' cuz left e sec 123s ma. then like so sianz. not much sec 4s there.haha. im not someone big there. maybe im not really needed la. but i just miss that feeling. hahas. that cello teacher is actually very nice. haha..

its e holidays now.meaning O's is just around e corner liaoz. OMG. just look at my results. if i get that kinda marks for the real thing. I"LL JUST DIE. just jump down some a building at some ulu place..LOL

till e next post...tata~

seriously, i dun wanna stay so fat for the rest of my life.
im getting fatter day by day. oh no.
i tink i need to get rid of at least 10Kg of fats off me. WHAT TO DO?? HOW? i tink i look like a mother who had just given birth. i look like an elephant.
DAMN! SHIT. i dun wanna look like this too.
i just cant control myself. u think its nice not being able to buy nice clothes?
ARGH. DAMMNIT
i just wanna buy nice clothes. issit that hard?
**i'm willing to marry anyone who can make me lose that fats. or someone who can sponsor me for those slimming programmes..LOL. rite..i should shoot myself rite? hahas.**
i just envy those girls..those girls who can try on any clothings that they fancy in THIS FASHION.haha..all those nice and pretty and STRAPLESS and SLEEVELESS clothes..lol. what has gone into me? i tink im getting depressed. oh shucks. if i cant find anything to wear to prom, i dunno what i'll do.
please dun say u're fat in front of me. dun do that or i'll get nasty. really. or i'll just get more depressed than i already am. haha.

i just dun like this. i really don't.
i thought if i could get good results, nothing will matter anymore. i can look as ugly as i want. haha.
BUT JUST LOOK AT MY RESULTS!!!! they suck lo.
nothing is good about me. no leadership. so-so social life. no looks. no good results. no talent. no money. i just cant find anymore good points about myself. i should just go jump off a building somewhere in thailand where nobody noes me. LOL



that's what i feel like after i couldn't fit into a dress in THIS FASHION. LOL..
but that's what i truly feel about myself..i tink i suck. dammnit. argh.

i'm bacK! so long never update this blog...well. had the celebration cum handover tt day.
SO FUN! lols. aniway. i've decided. i wanna join the alumni. [like i decided to do tt long ago.] LOLS..

i'm missing everybody! longing for the day to get back to the orchestra with everybody..when will that be? starting to miss xing kong and chang cheng. all the upbeats, cresendo, ZHENG LAOSHI!! wanna see him again. i dun even mind his "我�懂为设么[why. i cant find tt word.]你们一�下�就�讲�." LOLs..

i wanna go overseas!!! hmmmmz..hong kong. taiwan. australia. anywhere..even m'sia or sentosa...HAHAHAHA...

i dun understand y i cant write nice entries like u guys leh. y ar? so funny. hahas. any tips??? =]

Chinese Orchestra number 15. Temasek Secondary School. GOLD!

*screams* claps * cries* hugs* handphones out* OH MY GOSH!!!

ITS A GOLD! i cant believe it!

*still immersed in the estacy of GOLD*

mixed feeling about this gold. strive so much for that gold with honours. but as everybody says, one step at a time. hahas. even though its not a honour, we noe that we've did our best. on the stage, all i could think of was what mr oh said in the morning. "don't think of the results on the stage. the best music is the melodies that come out from here [points to heart]" OMG!
so tou-ched. so proud of TMSCO! we rock!

"play chang cheng like u will never get to play your bass ever again"--lin(cello) laoshi rocks!
"aiyo. dun cry animore! CONGRATS! [shakes hand]"--koh seng rocks!
i lurve lao zheng! all the alumnis! all the teachers in charge! =] still so happie****
i love zhu lao shi too! although he couldn't be with us till the end, we all know that he is always supporting us. he lives in our hearts~

and my bass. decided to call it..hmm.**BASSIE**! have so much feelings for him/it already. i dun wanna hand it over to somebody else! i dun wana step down! will miss everybody so much. audrey, sheramin, dennis, even zhirong. MUACKS


*TMSCO ROCKS*

THANKEW EVERYBODY!*** i love you!

Congrats to Choir!!!

okay. i noe this is abit late. but i had no time to update can? tt day when henry came back from the toilet. we knew something is not right. STRESS ar..haha..IT's A GOLD!!

choir is our motivation. we can do it.

hey. i wanted to do what ychuan did too.but my dad turned off my internet connection and i cudnt update. hmph.lol..

aniway.. CO rocks my socks!! i tink wad ms leong said is vy motivating. playing music is like story-telling. telling the story isnt enough. there must be expressions, rythm, dynamics blah blah..

bah..my fingers are seriously painful. but for that gold, i'm willing to do anithing, everything.

[WE WANT THAT GOLD]

i'm so happie that zheng lao shi is back. =]

F.O.C.U.S and believe... yeah... look at each other eyes!!![lol] and smile and enjoy[rmbering TAI FENG!!!] Jiayou man!!!! dun let it be a regret.... [from ychuan's blog]

there's only 11 days left. we must jiayou together! united as one, we can make it. [haha. so social studies]

20th april. the stage will be ours.

okay. i get wad u mean. if tt was for me.

SYF's coming. [20th april]
so exciting. so scary. dreading that day, but at the same time, hope it will come faster. i just dunno what to say.
tt practice at SCH was weird. i mean, y can DHSCO play it so grandly and we sound so weak at SCH? jiayou. buck up. there's just less than a month left. give it all u've got.
[dare to dream,persevere to achieve]

i just wanna be myself. if u tink that i'm pretending all along. u're wrong. i'm very happy. i think.

i want to sing. i wanna go shopping. i wanna take neoprints. regret not taking tt neoprint with u. dun tink i'll have the chance in the future.

regrets. argh. whatever.

SYF. just wait and see.

we can and we will.