wow..today rawks..we were so high..and e performance was nice..i did some actions wrongly..haha..but nvm..we din win..but at such short notice, our song rAwkS~~
all those singing and running around was fun, hope we can do dat again..maybe teachers day or sumting..haha..so kewl..then we can be crazy and get high and scream and shout and all..hahaha..so fun..haha..really..mEmOrieZ..
and ppl said we looked too solemn on stage..but we were SmILinG=p ;) (n_n) (u.u) !!! oh well..haha..its over..shud have gotten someone to record us or sumting..hahaahahaa.....
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And i got chOcoLatezzZzzZ from my ex-mortal---Joontat~
and its not e small small kind k!! its the seashell chocolate in a box de wor~~ thAnKeW soOoOo mUch~~ whoever gets him as an angel or mortal is lucky.haha..(n_n)

hai~
y did this happen to me? wat did i do to deserve this from u? is it my fault?
i dun wanna love u anymore..but it's been so long..i need to forget u. i have to do this.it hurts me too much.wat's love?-----something dat hurts..but wonderful..
friends? love? i dunno now.
i miss dose days..
where we would talk abt our dreams
where we would be so carefree
where we would be in a world of our own
where we would chat till dawn
where we would never run out of things to talk about
where we would be together everyday
where we would see the sunrise/sunset
where we would be childish and we wun laugh at each other
where we would go shopping for stuffs together
where we had fun
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i miss u..
hai..
oh man..
i'm sad..
y?
i'm doing this again..
argh!!!

My mum asked me: hey, how come never see u tok on e fone nowadays ar? ur dat fren now never call u le ar? how com??
 
then..silence..i dunno y too...
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haiZ~~

oh well..
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So u think u are all high and mighty lah? like...go away lor..u are not.
stop acting like u noe everyting lor..hmph..and stop tinking dat its not a big deal. dont say anyting if it doesnt concern u can? its fucking irritating lor..if u dare hurt anyone of us, i assure u dat u will fuck hippo the next morning...now i dunno whether its and insult to u or to her...(whooooopz) lolS..i'm fucking irritated now..argh..
like..whoa..too vulgar..hmmmmz... u shudnt have done dat..i dun trust u anymore..

new layout~ comments please? thankEw~ (n_n)

wow..last post was 12 days ago..dat's long..life hasnt been much better for me i gues..all those bad mood days and e homework..cant stand it anymore..and apart from the fact that i'm growing fatter again, i still cant seem to forget him? y? hmmmmz...**ponders**

recommended read: The Mozart Season-----by ???

i forgot..but its real nice..i like it..wahahaha..i'll post up e summary and e author some other day...lolS

yeah..anyway, i wasnt online for vy long(by my personal online status standards la). i'm not dead yet. dont worry..its juz dat i cant get onto e net due to some *unforseen circumstances(?)*..haha..shant go any further into that..
its e end of e hols already..time flies..swwwiiiiish~ and WOW~ half a year has passed in e blink of an eye..like..wow..fast..i still rmb my first day in sec 3..wahahah..all e guys in long pants, they seem so weird..but now, imagine them in shorts..they'll look funny i guess..haha...
sometimes i recall e memories in sec 2..really fun times we had together..e 3 of us always hanging out together and all..staying back in sch, going to e playgrd and act like kids, despite e fact that we are already secondary sch students..i miss those times dat we'll go out after classes, learn to play basketball, hanging out at e malls until late, try to play e dizi, came up with e amazing race after running from one end of e mrt train to other, try to study together, tink of crazy stuff to do, blah blah blah..i guess dats a memory, someting dat i will keep in my heart forever.

i hate myself...........y? i dunno..haiz..
was shopping juz now..all e clothes so nice. but as i said, they are for 'young and skinny gals...' me? i'm fat, ugly..lolz..sad life..haha..wat's e point of having better marks? but at least i dun lose in everyting..hai.....oh well...who cares anyway..haiz..
my aunt is getting married in september..and my pretty cousins will be there..and me? hai...oh no....i need to lose weight!!!! argh!! y am i born liddat?? hate myself le..
i wish i could lose weight easily..but argh...no such luck..i'm trying k? haiz
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i still hate myself..enuff said..i noe u are sick of reading this...wahahahaha...

wahahaha..finally updated le..i like got no mood to write anyting liao..lolz~

what will u be like if i never existed and came into ur lives??

hmmz..i dunno..maybe u wun be any different...i havnt been any impact in anyone's life anyway...haiz~

you dun care anyway..u've gt her now..

ahhh..wateva..looking forward to e bbq~ (n_n)
*hopes it will be fun*

Sorry...

Reading peoples' blogs, cant help but feel sad, for them and for myself too..

i'm sorry dat i am not of any help to anyone of u out there, sorry if i pissed u off in any of my childish ways, sorry if i had made u sad or angry in anything dat i've done to u.sorry if i had left u out in any way. i noe dat i tok too much abt some stuff, u are not happy. i'm sorry. i'm sorry dat i cant keep u entertained like the way she does. sorry if i'm too boring, sorry for keeping to myself, sorry for being too naive, thinking dat our frenship can last forever. sorry for not being able to comfort u when u are down. sorry for being inconsiderate towards ur feelings...

it's not like i dunno wat u are feeling.

i noe sometimes i am too sensitive to things, esp in relationships between us. i'm happy juz by getting a call or msg from u, at least u still remembered me.
i get jealous easily, i get angry too easily, i cry too easily..sorry..i'm human too.

seeing u with them sometimes, always so happy and carefree..i wonder if u had thought of wat i'm feeling inside. we were best frens once. you said i din care, have u wondered, issit u or me who has lost a fren? so near yet so far.. where do u place me in ur heart? maybe i wasnt even there at all..i wudnt noe..

i need to sing. i need to go shopping. i need to vent out my frustrations. i'm going to break down sooner or later...

i juz need someone..is dat too much?

BORED...............

heElllOoooOo~ decided to update muah bloggie..altho i dun tink i got stuff to tok abt lor..sooo sorrie...hm...oh..i got new fishies~ soo cute..went to buy them with daf and xw. they're juz guppies if u are wondering. wahahahaa.spent abt $12 in total [including e tank and all la!!]..kinda broke now la. so sad. haha.
then..hmmmz..oh! blogger's new look! its kinda nice. i tink. but e comment thingy is kinda late now. dunno lehx..i'm so bored. wanna watch sumting but dunno wat..The Day After Tomorrow is cool..i wan watch. Harry Potter is a Must watch one..who wanna go with me? wahahaha..
aiya..go le la..nth much to say actually..lolz..tataz~