new layout~ comments please? thankEw~ (n_n)

wow..last post was 12 days ago..dat's long..life hasnt been much better for me i gues..all those bad mood days and e homework..cant stand it anymore..and apart from the fact that i'm growing fatter again, i still cant seem to forget him? y? hmmmmz...**ponders**

recommended read: The Mozart Season-----by ???

i forgot..but its real nice..i like it..wahahaha..i'll post up e summary and e author some other day...lolS

yeah..anyway, i wasnt online for vy long(by my personal online status standards la). i'm not dead yet. dont worry..its juz dat i cant get onto e net due to some *unforseen circumstances(?)*..haha..shant go any further into that..
its e end of e hols already..time flies..swwwiiiiish~ and WOW~ half a year has passed in e blink of an eye..like..wow..fast..i still rmb my first day in sec 3..wahahah..all e guys in long pants, they seem so weird..but now, imagine them in shorts..they'll look funny i guess..haha...
sometimes i recall e memories in sec 2..really fun times we had together..e 3 of us always hanging out together and all..staying back in sch, going to e playgrd and act like kids, despite e fact that we are already secondary sch students..i miss those times dat we'll go out after classes, learn to play basketball, hanging out at e malls until late, try to play e dizi, came up with e amazing race after running from one end of e mrt train to other, try to study together, tink of crazy stuff to do, blah blah blah..i guess dats a memory, someting dat i will keep in my heart forever.

i hate myself...........y? i dunno..haiz..
was shopping juz now..all e clothes so nice. but as i said, they are for 'young and skinny gals...' me? i'm fat, ugly..lolz..sad life..haha..wat's e point of having better marks? but at least i dun lose in everyting..hai.....oh well...who cares anyway..haiz..
my aunt is getting married in september..and my pretty cousins will be there..and me? hai...oh no....i need to lose weight!!!! argh!! y am i born liddat?? hate myself le..
i wish i could lose weight easily..but argh...no such luck..i'm trying k? haiz
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i still hate myself..enuff said..i noe u are sick of reading this...wahahahaha...

wahahaha..finally updated le..i like got no mood to write anyting liao..lolz~

what will u be like if i never existed and came into ur lives??

hmmz..i dunno..maybe u wun be any different...i havnt been any impact in anyone's life anyway...haiz~

you dun care anyway..u've gt her now..

ahhh..wateva..looking forward to e bbq~ (n_n)
*hopes it will be fun*

Sorry...

Reading peoples' blogs, cant help but feel sad, for them and for myself too..

i'm sorry dat i am not of any help to anyone of u out there, sorry if i pissed u off in any of my childish ways, sorry if i had made u sad or angry in anything dat i've done to u.sorry if i had left u out in any way. i noe dat i tok too much abt some stuff, u are not happy. i'm sorry. i'm sorry dat i cant keep u entertained like the way she does. sorry if i'm too boring, sorry for keeping to myself, sorry for being too naive, thinking dat our frenship can last forever. sorry for not being able to comfort u when u are down. sorry for being inconsiderate towards ur feelings...

it's not like i dunno wat u are feeling.

i noe sometimes i am too sensitive to things, esp in relationships between us. i'm happy juz by getting a call or msg from u, at least u still remembered me.
i get jealous easily, i get angry too easily, i cry too easily..sorry..i'm human too.

seeing u with them sometimes, always so happy and carefree..i wonder if u had thought of wat i'm feeling inside. we were best frens once. you said i din care, have u wondered, issit u or me who has lost a fren? so near yet so far.. where do u place me in ur heart? maybe i wasnt even there at all..i wudnt noe..

i need to sing. i need to go shopping. i need to vent out my frustrations. i'm going to break down sooner or later...

i juz need someone..is dat too much?

BORED...............

heElllOoooOo~ decided to update muah bloggie..altho i dun tink i got stuff to tok abt lor..sooo sorrie...hm...oh..i got new fishies~ soo cute..went to buy them with daf and xw. they're juz guppies if u are wondering. wahahahaa.spent abt $12 in total [including e tank and all la!!]..kinda broke now la. so sad. haha.
then..hmmmz..oh! blogger's new look! its kinda nice. i tink. but e comment thingy is kinda late now. dunno lehx..i'm so bored. wanna watch sumting but dunno wat..The Day After Tomorrow is cool..i wan watch. Harry Potter is a Must watch one..who wanna go with me? wahahaha..
aiya..go le la..nth much to say actually..lolz..tataz~

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ARE OVER~~~~ its pArtY tiMe..woOhoO~ oh yea..i'm lurving it...wahahahaa..so happy can?
went out with yc and mich juz now. so cool..then dere dis cute guy.lolz..nvm..shant tok abt him..wahahaha..tink he's mixed blood..jap and chinese or sumting..so kawaii..lolz..and then, i kept wanting to take neoprints thou i noe i look ugly in them..addicted le can? sorrie la..lolz..and then, i spent a lot of money..lolz

woohooo~~!!! tml is e last paper le! oh yea..jiayou people~ one more day and we'll be free~oh yes..have fun~ who wanna go out? lolz..i'm trying to make a long post..but as u can see, i gt nth to say la..so..i shall juz go..tataZ~

hey~today is saturday~oh gawd..tml mothers' day le~!!! i haven buy present yet lehx..how how? still got 4 papers..but feels like e exams are over le..wahahahaa..so slack now can? i'm like so dead..haiz..dunno wat to do now..feel lost larx..hai~

wow~ we juz bought a condo!!! cool~ there's a star-gazing observatory can? sooo cool lor..but haven built finish yet..they say expected to finish in dec next yr..still got so long..haha..cant wait liao..it's so nice..hahaha...
tml language papers..dun wanna study liao!!! sooo sian..haiz..