Finally everything has ended...

As most people should know, my grandfather passed away on tuesday 25th september 2007 at 140 am...
it was the mooncake festival, and my mum's birthday.

he had a stroke 10 years ago. when i was only 8...
my clear memories of him was just us visiting him at the old folk's home. he couldn't talk or communicate with us. and he was paralyzed on one side of his body. his hands and legs were twisted in a painful way cos of the stroke. and it always hurts me to see him like that.

i remember him as being a very peaceful and nice grandfather. all my relatives said that he was very kind. and he doted on me a lot when i was young. he would buy me stuff and bring me out sometimes.
he was a taxi driver. they said that 他很爱美。 很喜欢穿白色的西装裤。
so we gave him his white pants for him to bring along with him...

after he got the stroke, we brought him home and hired a maid. but the maid was indonesian, and she couldnt really communicate well with us. so we sent her back.
by that time, my grandmother was already 50+ and although she was in good health, she couldnt take care of my grandfather by herself. i remember the day when the people from renci hospital coming to my grandma's house to bring my granddad to the home.
i cried that day as they carried him away. they said i was dumb, cos they're just bringing him to a place where he will be well taken care of...

but renci hospital is so far away from our homes. so we really could not afford to visit him frequently. and ever since my dad had his license suspended, we only could visit him on holidays...

3 days before he left us, we said we wanted to visit him the next day, cos we had not visited him in a long time..but, 不知道怎么的, we forgot about it. and we missed the last chance to see him alive. this time, 真的见不到他的最后一面。

但是， 他们说他走的很平静。 心跳是慢慢地变弱的。
也许他终于解脱了吧。
再也不需要承受着这些病痛了。
只是我们很舍不得，但是我知道他不会忘记我们的。。。

我失去的是只和我相处了不到10年的外公， 但是外婆和妈妈和舅舅们失去的是他们爱了超过30， 40 年的老公和爸爸。我知道他们一定比我还伤心难过。。。

希望公公你在天上可以好好的， 再也不要有任何的病痛。
也要保佑我们能身体健康， 尤其是长辈们。。。

and of course, thank you to you guys who showed ur concern.
it was very much appreciated when i needed them... :)

yayness PRELIMS IS OVER!!!!!

TEMPORARY HAPPINESS =)

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until the results are out. and we're back to mugging.
GOSH.
it'll be over soon. OMG we're so looking forward to it!!!


[who can resist these things!!!! OMG] except jazreel who doesnt like butter....
so chio de donuts! haha. nicer than singapore de right!

LOL

TODAY IS OUR LAST PRELIM PAPER!
ALTHOUGH I DID HORRENDOUSLY BAD. HAHA.
BUT I WAS SO EXCITED THAT I COULDN'T REALLY CARE...

we went to marina! =) machiam mini celebration ah..
nice food at Changing Appetites (CA=calcium?) wth. hahaa..

FOOD:






VERY NICE!!! :)

if u would like to hire students who can regurgitate everything that they have learnt in their education of 12 years, in just one stupid f***ing exam...and score perfect As...and pretend to be oh-so-smart. i-can-study-better-than-u-so-i-will-have-a-bright-future.

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dun employ me


i think u'll be better off with cows.

they regurgitate best =)

today's exams are just so WHOA.
yeah i think u get what i mean...

chem in the morning was okay..
DUN GET ME WRONG

it's okay...
comparatively to the physical geog paper in the afternoon.
the geog paper was really bad.
and by "bad", i dun mean the "ohshit i dunno how to do this question" kind of bad.
today, it's "BAD". it's the "f**k, i dunno anything" kind of bad...

sighs...yah it's just bad.


okies it'll be ranting after this point........[dun read if u'll be irritated by my ranting!!!]

i told myself after JCT that it would be the last time that i will do so badly for an exam, that everything will just get better, that i will start to work hard, that i will pass my prelims, and eventually score As in the A level.

but that just didn't seem to happen at all. instead, i think it just got worse..today's geog paper seriously demoralized me. i dunno why.
maybe i shouldn't have taken geog. After all, i only scored a B3 for Geog in O levels. this proves that I'm not very good in geog.
or maybe i shouldn't have even come to JC. i remembered that i came to jc cos i didn't noe what course to take. but even now. i still dunno.

早知道就当机立断。。。以前就做好决定。 可能现在就不会这么痛苦了!
maybe i would be in chem engineering now. or business. or nursing.
if i were to be in business, i may even be in China now with mk doing attachment!
sigh..

O level 的时候。。。
prelims 我考得很差... i was a 18 pointer.
but i still did it in the real exam. i scored 10 points..
but i dun think it was cos i really worked hard. it was cos the papers were easier.

if i could do it during O levels...
maybe i can do it too for A levels...

maybe...

just maybe....

how we'd wish that this is the real thing!!!
spare me the torture!

is anyone worse off than us?
having 4 days of double papers!
ahhh.
i need brain cells!
mine got killed in today's battle against the econs and math paper.......

i declare that i'm officially dead for GP!!
i think the pass has flown out of the window right after i started the question. =(

but ironically..
i dun feel like studying now.
there's econs and maths paper tmr...
DIE.
again....


sigh.....

oh and should i buy this...

haha . told u i cannot study at homE!!!

ONLY 280NT!! tts only like S$14?....so nice! i like the blue one!

i like the grey de! and the brown jacket.. it'll be usefull to cover up! haha...

380NT.

this jacket is damn cool! i like it. haha. and they have lots of colours lor. =)

like white black blue yellow green red pink lightpink........

this 2 also! damn nice. ohman....the giraffe so cute! and the grey one is nice. esp with the necklace...... ahhhhh

the one on the left is damn chio! haha got alot of glitter! i like!!!!!

and these hello kitty makeup. haa from japan!

my fren got buy for me when she went to japan..!

OKIE!!!!

aiyah. how i wish all these are MINE!!!

i wanna go shopping.

but none of these are mine la. except for one hello kitty eyeshadow and lipgloss....

=(

I just concluded that i really cannot study at home!!!!!

i'll just spent all my time at tw websites! alll this pretty stuff is making me so envious of tw ppl!!

I WANNA MIGRATE THERE....!!!

continued from 2 post ago.....

after having lunch with my 4U people.. we went to walk around until tiffany and co. came to meet us.

so after that...
me ying, von, jun, tiffy and brian went to buy food for the party that the class was gg to throw for sinyee.
THANK US!!! =)

it was loads of fun.
my first time at GIANT Tampines! it's damn HUGE la. i felt so lost inside! haha...
and some items were placed so far away from each other. so funny.
cos sometimes we just cant rmb where the previous food was from.
we take and realised that we dun need it anymore. so must put back. >.< style="COLOR: rgb(255,0,0); FONT-STYLE: italic">yeah was damn tiring but it was kinda amusing too.


okie so at the chalet..lalalalalala. i wanted to blog abt the details. but got no photos!
look around at other blogs for the photos ba.
and also for the ***HIGHLIGHT OF THE NIGHT***

ope sy likes the present that we(must name de hor...): me ying, von, jun, tiffy, yingqi, brian, yicheng, kh) got for her!!

i think the dress is damn chio! =)

okie.. this birthday thing made me realise that i really like to celebrate birthdays!
esp my birthday.LOL
cos a birthday is a happy day.
[can get alot of presents!]

最令人期待的就是好朋友会买什么礼物！
真的可以从他们买什么礼物中， 看看他们到底了解你多少！！

哇。
我真的很期待自己生日的到来！！

HAVE I NOT REPEATED MYSELF ENOUGH THAT SHOPPING MAKES ME A HAPPY GIRL?

how i wish that someone would employ me to go shopping. haha FAT HOPE i noe. >.<

there's a john little sale over at expo now. some stuff are really cheap. e.g. cosmetics!

[okay i shall try not to be so auntie la...]

haha. i like to look at all these colourful things which make girls pretty. =)

so instead of studying(which is what i desperately need to do now)..

my mum jio-ed me to go shopping with her at the sale.. >.<

OHNO.

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but this trip was quite fruitful, at least i got something!

yesterday was a happy day!

although i was irritatedly woken up by my forgot-to-turn-off hp alarm clock...
woke up to find a msg from mich! asked if i was gg back to tms..
actually i was persuaded by xf a few nights b4 that there's nth to go back for....
but ytd morning, i was so tempted to go back cos it seems like everyone's gg back. SO FUN!
and being yeening who loves fun, of cos i agreed to go TMS!
actually the point is to meet up with people [all those whom i havnt seen for such a long time!] haha shun bian see the teachers only! >.< >

i really didnt regret the trip!
although prelims are a week away. and the As are coming in less than 2 months.

although


yeah right.... =X

i think the last time that our class met up was last september. so technically it's been a year since i've seen these people!
okie it's my fault that i never plan la >.<

the very nice new heritage gallery!


but they forgot to lock the cupboards. so we ehem* took out*ehem something...

GOLD award for 2005 SYF Chinese Orchestra Central Judging!

and of cos we placed it back in its original place...


while waiting for people to come...


MR ENG! haha we can never forget him.
he loves to take pictures... >.<


clique.! w/o lishean who refused to wake up....hahaa..


finally when everyone's here. and some ppl gone dunno else where.
we were trying to find mdm suriadi. but she wasnt in =(
GEOGRAPHY!!


this is our last photo! after crapping with ms neo. haha..
she told my bro's class that 4U of 2005 was the worst. only got 5 A1s for combined humans...=X haha oops...

oo and did i mention that the guys changed a lot!!!??
just look at joontat's muscles.
boonsin got bian shuai and taller. new age sensitive guy.
brian isnt as scrawny. and he's taller now.
delwyn changed. but i dunno in what way..
shawn is taller now too.
melvin still the same leh.
wenbin is even skinner now la. gosh...


yeah so after the visiting at tms. we went tm to eat. haha.
no place at all! settled at katrina.
I SWEAR I WON'T EAT THERE AGAIN!
it's so scary!
small COCKROACHES on the wall. right beside where we were sitting.
and it's not one, not two.
THERE WAS 5 OR 6 OF THEM!
super disgusted okay..

but i will not let that spoil our day! haha

everything was just so fun, fun, and more fun! =)