seriously, i dun wanna stay so fat for the rest of my life.
im getting fatter day by day. oh no.
i tink i need to get rid of at least 10Kg of fats off me. WHAT TO DO?? HOW? i tink i look like a mother who had just given birth. i look like an elephant.
DAMN! SHIT. i dun wanna look like this too.
i just cant control myself. u think its nice not being able to buy nice clothes?
ARGH. DAMMNIT
i just wanna buy nice clothes. issit that hard?
**i'm willing to marry anyone who can make me lose that fats. or someone who can sponsor me for those slimming programmes..LOL. rite..i should shoot myself rite? hahas.**
i just envy those girls..those girls who can try on any clothings that they fancy in THIS FASHION.haha..all those nice and pretty and STRAPLESS and SLEEVELESS clothes..lol. what has gone into me? i tink im getting depressed. oh shucks. if i cant find anything to wear to prom, i dunno what i'll do.
please dun say u're fat in front of me. dun do that or i'll get nasty. really. or i'll just get more depressed than i already am. haha.

i just dun like this. i really don't.
i thought if i could get good results, nothing will matter anymore. i can look as ugly as i want. haha.
BUT JUST LOOK AT MY RESULTS!!!! they suck lo.
nothing is good about me. no leadership. so-so social life. no looks. no good results. no talent. no money. i just cant find anymore good points about myself. i should just go jump off a building somewhere in thailand where nobody noes me. LOL



that's what i feel like after i couldn't fit into a dress in THIS FASHION. LOL..
but that's what i truly feel about myself..i tink i suck. dammnit. argh.

i'm bacK! so long never update this blog...well. had the celebration cum handover tt day.
SO FUN! lols. aniway. i've decided. i wanna join the alumni. [like i decided to do tt long ago.] LOLS..

i'm missing everybody! longing for the day to get back to the orchestra with everybody..when will that be? starting to miss xing kong and chang cheng. all the upbeats, cresendo, ZHENG LAOSHI!! wanna see him again. i dun even mind his "我�懂为设么[why. i cant find tt word.]你们一�下�就�讲�." LOLs..

i wanna go overseas!!! hmmmmz..hong kong. taiwan. australia. anywhere..even m'sia or sentosa...HAHAHAHA...

i dun understand y i cant write nice entries like u guys leh. y ar? so funny. hahas. any tips??? =]