wow..last post was 12 days ago..dat's long..life hasnt been much better for me i gues..all those bad mood days and e homework..cant stand it anymore..and apart from the fact that i'm growing fatter again, i still cant seem to forget him? y? hmmmmz...**ponders**

recommended read: The Mozart Season-----by ???

i forgot..but its real nice..i like it..wahahaha..i'll post up e summary and e author some other day...lolS

yeah..anyway, i wasnt online for vy long(by my personal online status standards la). i'm not dead yet. dont worry..its juz dat i cant get onto e net due to some *unforseen circumstances(?)*..haha..shant go any further into that..
its e end of e hols already..time flies..swwwiiiiish~ and WOW~ half a year has passed in e blink of an eye..like..wow..fast..i still rmb my first day in sec 3..wahahah..all e guys in long pants, they seem so weird..but now, imagine them in shorts..they'll look funny i guess..haha...
sometimes i recall e memories in sec 2..really fun times we had together..e 3 of us always hanging out together and all..staying back in sch, going to e playgrd and act like kids, despite e fact that we are already secondary sch students..i miss those times dat we'll go out after classes, learn to play basketball, hanging out at e malls until late, try to play e dizi, came up with e amazing race after running from one end of e mrt train to other, try to study together, tink of crazy stuff to do, blah blah blah..i guess dats a memory, someting dat i will keep in my heart forever.

i hate myself...........y? i dunno..haiz..
was shopping juz now..all e clothes so nice. but as i said, they are for 'young and skinny gals...' me? i'm fat, ugly..lolz..sad life..haha..wat's e point of having better marks? but at least i dun lose in everyting..hai.....oh well...who cares anyway..haiz..
my aunt is getting married in september..and my pretty cousins will be there..and me? hai...oh no....i need to lose weight!!!! argh!! y am i born liddat?? hate myself le..
i wish i could lose weight easily..but argh...no such luck..i'm trying k? haiz
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i still hate myself..enuff said..i noe u are sick of reading this...wahahahaha...

wahahaha..finally updated le..i like got no mood to write anyting liao..lolz~

what will u be like if i never existed and came into ur lives??

hmmz..i dunno..maybe u wun be any different...i havnt been any impact in anyone's life anyway...haiz~

you dun care anyway..u've gt her now..

ahhh..wateva..looking forward to e bbq~ (n_n)
*hopes it will be fun*